3 years

and it all took tons of courage,regert,
pain,anger,will power to talk to him after 3 years. & it felt so much better, all the hate,anger i had for him for breaking my heart for the first time just vanished and all i did was cry. I might cry the whole night tonight , to let all the pain go. Cause the first breakup is the worst breakup n i hated him for 3 years for doing so but for how long could i hate him ?? “we hate only the ones we love”. I know we both can never be together in any universe but all the memories hurt. People change, but memories dont. It was real love, the kind of love i would have done anything for him.Mad , dangerous,reckless love …. but it was the only time i felt love …real love for him. We cant be together, never ever … so im just gonna turnoff the lights , think more clearly about my life, n just cry the whole night. Because love hurts. Its not what you see in movies,fairytales with a happy ending. Real love hurts …. and if it doesnt hurts…. its not love..
– barkha bale

HEARTS ARE OFTEN BROKEN , BY THE WORDS LEFT UNSPOKEN ( PART-2)

he never gathered courage,
to express his love for her…
his friends always encouraged,
him cause he wouldnt stop loving that girl…

she got tired of waiting,
she was a beauty queen,
there were many boys who kept hitting,
on her n den she finally started dating ….

He saw her laughing,cuddling,kissing,embracing,hugging,loving the other guy….
all tornup,broken,bruised,defeated he had to say her bye bye ….

7 years  passed ,
and he still thinks how he was so naive to let the girl go,
only because he was scaredO of expressing love, no ego ..
at lonely nights, he regrets,he cries…..
wakes up in the middle of night , asking himself why???
why didn’t she wait ?
was I too late ???
was this written in our fate??
she could have been my soul mate…
we would have gone on a 1000 dates,
but destiny closed the gates…
only because i didnt say “i love you” at the right time…
i guess it was my only crime …

so, my dear friends ,
take my advice ,
if you love your girl, dont think twice…
Tell her before its too late …
tell her before density closes its gate ,
tell her , say it to her , speak your whole heart out ,
cause  HEARTS ARE OFTEN BROKEN ,
BY THE WORDS LEFT UNSPOKEN … 

                – BARKHA BALE

Hearts are often broken by the words left unspoken- (PART 1)

Hearts are often broken by the words left unspoken- (PART 1)

He never said how much he loved her cause he was bad at expressing,
damsel in distress,all she did was she kept waiting,
thinking one day he’ll gather courage and stop messing,

but all he did was grazed her and adored her from distance,
astounded by her beauty,his thoughts faced resistance,
“will she say yes? or No? does she even care abt me n my existence?”
                         -Barkha bale

RECOLLECT AND REWIND

This is actually a song i wrote when i was 17. I always read this when im alone or sad. Hope this song/poetry gives you strength too….

   “RECOLLECT AND REWIND”

Those chocolates did bring smile on my face,
you know what i am & you know my taste,
but your extra care leads me to suspect,
is everything fine wid you or do you need me there??

but you say, you cant live without me,
you text me 100 times a day,
your over possessiveness leads me unaware,
to the irony of thoughts
in your mind & in your head..

ITS A RECOLLECTION of memories of past months,
ITS A RECOLLECTION of lessons you learnt,
ITS A RECOLLECTION of pain in your mind,
only lonliness wen you’ll find,
OH MY SWEET HONEY !!
recollect the happiness of our time..
RECOLLECT & REWIND…
RECOLLECT & REWIND..

you have gone through the biggest tragedy,
you are the survivor & days go causally,
but the SCARS are still left,
no matter what, they will be there
people act to be sweeter,
they force you to live in their orbital parameter,
they are adamant, double-face masked person,
& i see them hurting you without any reasons,
they try to take advantage of you
when your world gets dark, i’ll be standing next to you…..
right next to you,

when your confidence trails out,
& you beg in front of STONES,
the stunned silence KILLS me out,
i want you for MY OWN,
so dont you ever cry for ppl who patronize,
CAUSE THEY DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE, THEY DONT KNOW YOUR PRICE………………
RETRIEVE happiness my sweet honey,
retrieve your happy heart,
retrieve the one i used to know……
retrieve your paradise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS A RECOLLECTION of memories of past months,
ITS A RECOLLECTION of lessons you have learnt,
ITS A RECOLLECTION of pain in your mind,
only lonliness wen you’ll find,
OH MY SWEET HONEY !
recollect the happiness of our time,
RECOLLECT & REWIND
RECOLLECT & REWIND
OH MY SWEET HONEY!!!! DONT YOU MAKE DAT SAD FACE….
CAUZE I KNOW WHO YOU ARE &&& I KNOW YOUR  TASTE

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cold hearted

so i wrote this poem just now, its based on time when i fell for a guy i wasnt even that interested in and it was all causual relation with no feelings involved . He was the most coldest person i ever met, no love, no compassion, no warmth. Just plain, lifeless love … so here’s the poem…. omg im writing something nearly after years… hope u’ll like it…

falling in love seemed a great idea after my recent breakup;
so i found u,all decent,clean, good all madeup ;
of kindness but yet i didnt realise you were the biggest mistake i’ll endup ;
making and regretting forever cursing myself for falling for you.

you were so blue & cold,
i was the boldest sunshine dat you couldnt hold.
how can i even be so blind?
falling in love with you,was i out of my mind?
how can even do this to myself,
with you, there was no connection or emotion dat i felt .
you were all robotic,never been in love…
& i was all fairytale,princess,forever kinda of love

but there’s sumthing abt NON-SENSE love.
it doesnt makes sense and dat’s why i loved it, & i pretended to love you.
there’s sumthing abt falling in love without feeling love.
it doesnt makes sense & it leaves me stone cold hearted and blue .
only if i knew ,
such a pain in the ass you’ll be;
i would have never loved you even in my wildest dreams…

and now i hate you so much i cant even handle to be around you for a second,
it drives me so crazy and mad and reckless i reckon..

you are the biggest mistake of my life,
all i can do is cry ,
but i will be careful next time!
love’s a inhuman, mecriless game now-a-days.
mentally-draining,frustating,love slays…
remember what that old-saying says
be happy,single,successful and make your  way